Farewell

To my friends,

I enjoyed being with you guys.
It was a lot of fun and I treasure it.
We'll be not meeting each other in a long time.
We all know what's coming for us ; SPM.
I understand you guys are busy, but after that shit is over,
we're gonna have a hell of a time! I promise.
Remember to do good and think of the good this year.
Study smart, not hard. No more playing around, it's SPM.
I pray the best for all of you. Take care.

To my family,

I'm gonna miss you guys the most.
I won't forget you guys. I'll call if I have the time.
Pray for me that I don't make the same mistake twice.
I need those prayers.
Don't miss me while I'm gone.

To my family and friends,

I'm not really good with goodbyes..
You won't be seeing me around anymore.
You should not be sad because just think that I'm always around.
But, I'll see you guys if I have the time.
I know my absence is just the same as my presence.
I just wanted you guys to know that, wherever you guys are,
I'll be thinking about you and I'll be missing you.

I love you guys. Take care.
And thank you for a great year and great times.
Happy New Year!

A Thing or Two About Bitches

So tonight I just learned two things about bitches.
They are :

#1. Always chasing after assholes

So, your friends keep telling you he's a huge dick.
Why're you still going on for him?
Go find someone else who's a lesser dick.
But noooo, he's good looking, he's smart, he's rich and he has an iPhone.
I understand why you're still going on him.

#2. Not realizing what's in front of them.

 So, there's a nice guy falling for you ey?
And you decided to ignore him and still go for the asshole.
Then one day, that asshole left you for another girl.
What happened to the other nice guy?
He left you for another girl too.
Now you're all alone again.

I get it now.

There's still one more thing I don't get.
Still holding on to that kind of guy for 4 years.
All he has done for you is hurting you.
That, I don't get. And will never get.

That Feeling Again

I hate this feeling.
Feeling that I should give up on everything.
Feeling that I should give up on you.
I don't want to give up on you.
But it's this feeling again....
It's taking control of me.
I want us to happen.

There was one wise friend once told me ;

If it's fate, it's gonna happen.

I do believe it's fate, and I am gonna make it happen.
So, for tonight I'm just gonna let this feeling take me again.
I know tomorrow it'll be gone.
And I'll be back up.
Chasing you again.
Making it happen.

I Need You Now

Where are you?
I'm in trouble.
I need you to calm me down.
I need you to make me feel better.
I need you to make me happy.
I need you. Only you.
Not all this bullshit.
Not all this work.
Not all this stress!
Please, just.... be here with me.

Stuck between the Real and the Fake

I figured it out
I knew it now!
All the people you know
him
her
them.
We are all hypocrites!

How did I figured it out?
I'm a hypocrite too.

One day I do good,
one day I do bad.

One day I'm cool,
one day I'm a fool.

Or is it my understanding about hypocrite is wrong?

Waiting For You

Here I am waiting
for you to come home
from your travels.

Why am I waiting?
It's still the same
if you were home.

I don't want to
think about it anymore.
All that matters
is you being home, lahv.

Taking My Chances With You

I like you. A lot.
I don't know if you're reading this or not.
I'm guessing not.
You know, everyday I thought about giving up on you.
Because I know there's no chance I'll be with you.
'You'll never be mine'.
When I talk to you, it's like you don't even want to talk to me.
People say I think too much. I don't blame them.

Now that we started talking again, I'm gonna take my chances with you.
I'm gonna see how far I can go with you.
And I hope that far is you being 'mine'.
Insyaallah one day.
One day.

The day I have money

One day, I'm very sure,
I will have a lot of money.
I will find that money
I will save that money
I will spend that money
Yeah, I'll spend that money
on shit I don't need
I'm gonna waste it,
on all the things I don't need.

I'll fly to Johor, I'll fly to Indonesia,
I'll go to Zone 5, I'll go to Showroom,
I'll go to uptowns, I'll go to Chow Kit.
No one's going to stop me,
from wasting on shit.
But I'm doing it now.
But it's not my money.

I will have my own money.

Birthdays

I once told my friends on my 16th birthday ;

'Hi. My name is Ahmad Haziq Aiman.
Today is my birthday.
Those who remembers, I love.
Those who doesn't, don't love me.'

I call it 'ayat Mockingjay'
Sebab dalam buku Mockingjay,
ada mcm poem pasal 'The Hanging Tree'.

So, what about birthdays?
Is it about the wishes?
Is it about the presents?
Or is it about the parties?
To me, I don't give a shit about those above.
What matters to me about birthdays is,
someone who remembers it.

 

You are my center when I spin away

Thom Yorke is a fucking genius
He's the lead singer from the band Radiohead
And I have to say, I admire him a lot.
He wrote songs from his heart
and not like the songs these days.
Here's one of his songs called Videotape. 
I cried the first time I heard it.
Mood sedih pulak time tu haha (no h8)

Does size really matters?

I admit, I work out
But I don't see any changes haha
When you work out, you can't just work out
You've got to be obsessed with it
Then, your work out will work out.
Kalau work out sekali sekala je buat apa en?
Kena obses doh dengan work out ni
Baru ada motivation
Baru badan jadi besar
Your size doesn't matter
till you're all grown up

Kawan Yang Tak Mengerti Janji

Aku sebenarnya dah lama tahan dengan perangai kau ni.
You use people
You use them for your own selfish reasons
You play with their feelings
And I can't accept the fact
that you can just get away with it.
All I want to say to your pathetic face is ;

Fuck you!
I hate you so much!
I want to kill you right now!
People like you shouldn't exist in the world!

Why?
Because you don't know the meaning of promises.
You don't know the meaning of true friendship.
And you treat people like they doesn't exist.
I'm fucking here, you asshole. Am I invisible?

I guess that's why you're like that.
That's why people hate you.
I shouldn't be friends with you anymore.
But I need you.
I don't know why.
Without you, I'm nothing.
For now.

Zaman PMR

Ahh, bangun2 je pagi ni teringat zaman form 3.
Tahun paling best abang2 senior kata,
aku pun pelik, apa yang bestnya?
Time tu aku sangat naive.
'Kau dah masuk form 4 nnti kau tau la'
And I do now.
That year, kau tak payah usaha sangat pun,
cikgu yang akan suap kau.
All you have to do is just take what they give.
I didn't appreciate that year,
now I wish to go back and fix it.
It's too late now, in another 2 weeks
I'll be an SPM candidate.
And I have to fix that starting now.

Big day for 98's

I feel you.
I know you're nervous
I know you're scared
I know you don't want to let your parents down
I know you're not confident to get those straight A's
I felt it too, because it was my big day too.

In the end, whatever you get for your results,
itulah hasil usaha kau.
Jangan tak bersyukur dengan apa yang kau dapat.
Insyaallah, sebelum perjalanan ke sekolah tu
cium tangan mak, cium tangan ayah, peluk diorang
dan mulakan perjalanan dengan nafas bismillah
dan sentiasa utamakan kaki kanan.
Whatever happens,
your parents will always love you.
Keep praying guys, it's never too late.

GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST

Wish I was in overseas right now

I just wanted to go hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Why did I stopped talking to her?

I don't see any reason to continue
I don't see any progress
I don't see any fun
I don't see or feel anything when I'm talking to her.

But
I do see something,
I can see she doesn't even want to talk to me
And that's the reason I stopped talking to her.

Or am I just overthinking?

Be gone for awhile

I don't know whether this is a good idea or not
But I just want to be gone for awhile
I'm sick of people tweeting
I'm sick of people complaining
I'm sick of people worried about tomorrow
I'm sick of people.
I don't need them all, I just need a few.

Let's see how long I can hold on without them.

Reda is a fucking dick

Do you know this guy?

This is Giovanni Reda and he's a fucking dick

I don't know, I don't hate him
It's just the way he treat people
Why can't people like you
treat people nicely?
Why can't people like you
just have a good personality?
Why can't dicks like you
just be nice?

Takde life?

'Orang yang selalu lepak setiap malam ni takde life ke?'  
'Orang yang skate setiap hari ni takde life ke?'
'Orang yang duduk rumah baca buku John Green je takde life ke?

'Orang yang study setiap malam ni takde life ke?'

'Orang yang tidur je setiap petang ni takde life ke?'

And it goes on and on and on and on and on............

                                                                                                            

You know what? That is their lives. 

Orang yang takde life sekarang ni is YOU.

Just another Wednesday

Rabu.

Sama je macam hari yang lain.
Sunyi, malas, bosan dan berulang.
Wasting my time every damn day.

But why do I care? I've got nothing to do anyways.

Puberty

Let me tell you something about puberty ;
Your looks changed
Your voice changed
Your body changed
You changed.

Need a proof?

2010 (i think)

 

 

2012 (yea 2012)

So, puberty is a great thing huh?
But one more thing about puberty ;
You get old.
Who wants to get old?

I'm back

Wow, gotta admit, I was kinda annoying back then haha.
Not anymore. Two years has passed. So much can happen
in those two years. And so much did happen. I returned bcs
twitter is not my place anymore. I need a quite place, a lonely
place, a place where I can fucking say whatever I want to say
and I've been here before. Now I'm back.